An end that lead to a new beginning

Many a times heard this from so many people “All well that ends well” Oh really!!! Wherever we are today one thought that just don’t leave is when is this going to end and how is it going to end? At times the whole whirlpool cycle is scary and doesn’t leave me any good. There are many sleepless nights and gloomy days that have been my pals for moments together. Have struggled myself out of the cycle but every now and then it just sucks me in.

This question kept me awake and restless. I decided to myself lets make a deal of making self resilient (huge jargon!!) Easy said than done!!!!

Started with small baby steps to get life in running gear (as if it was stopped!! – not like that) however the whole outside situation got me into a knee jerk reaction and i stopped thiking (aarrgghhh – is it really possible???) Nope- it was the downward spiral that started in the head and then started impacting everything that I did.

How did I came to terms with these testing times, staying at home, work less and clueless of how life will turn out to be!!!

I took each step cautiously. I came to understand that everything starts deep within the mental process and the mind since that is where all the games are played. Fake it till you’re made of it Or perhaps I should say that you keep telling yourself what has to be done until your mind finally gives up and starts instructing you how to be cheerful, chirpy, and normal. This motivated me to get up off my lazy back and start taking walks, albeit brief ones at first on the busy roads. The insights were humorous, and I received a few greetings and smiles in return. This excited me to take few more and few more.

When the mind became lively, it began to think positively and provided a perspective that allowed one to welcome whatever was present at the time with open arms. Acceptance boosted talks more and reconnected neural pathways for more effective relationships.

I am currently traveling in that direction. Let me break out of my rut and start relating to others with genuine enthusiasm and curiosity.

It’s NOW!!!

The past is gone time and life that will never be rewind. What you have lived is as lived forever. Nothing can be changed about the by-gone era what holds is the future. The very future that is un-predictive and unknown. This gives an erry feeling and the mind wants to be in contentment of what it has achieved, it has done. Future is not that holds unknown, it is what is lived in present NOW. Life is not about something happening after few years, months, days, hours or moments; it is NOW.

Are you aware of this NOW in your life? Every moment is the truth and unfold the most beautiful moment to you. Are you prepared to receive it ?

Being in the moment can happen when you are conscious about yourself. Mindfulness can work only when you allow yourself to be what you are and not force on what is required. Its challenging to control the desire to be what is required as it creates a conflict between the norms and authentic. Life is happening here with you; dance with it, sing with it and love it. No meanings to be made out of it; life itself is meaningless the whole game starts when we start giving meaning to it. The trouble is when present moment shows up opposite to what you have defined and then you start making it right as per your definition.  There is always going to be what is and what is not condition if you have a set of frame to live life. The NOW moment will get obliterated in past musings or evanish in the craving of future happiness. Keep yourself here and now and life will be a canvas to paint. To be here and now start participating in your life rather than observing it from the stands, bring yourself as a player to life and accept the rules of games. No strings attached to the winning or the losing of the game whats important is to feel, love and play the game. Even when the playground is not set the rules remain the same. Even when there is no option you still have a choice; a choice of being in the game or opting out of it. However once the choice is made there is no option.

Let the game begin the Game of Now; be in the playfullness and see how it unfolds the essence to you. Its a beautiful inkling of being here right now at this moment.  So live on to what could be your fullest  you and see how the world beholds your wishes to be what you are. The universe is here right now waiting for your to give what you ask for, all you have to do is ask at this moment.

From this moment on you have the power to change, from this moment on you have the freedom to love, from this moment on you have free will to forgive and from this moment on you have privilege to live.

Walk the Path

“niyatam kuru karma tvam
karma jyayo hy akarmanah
sarira-yatrapi ca te
na prasiddhyed akarmanah”

Perform your prescribed duty, for action is better than inaction. A man cannot even maintain his physical body without work.

We all our bound by a purpose and that’s our prakriti, if we try to renounce the purpose we will not attain the ultimate salvation.

What is the ultimate realization for any of us? Being in service and making life a better place to be is the goal of every being on this earth.

However what do we do when faced with uncertainties and failure, we leave our karyakshetra and get into inaction. The balances tilt from cursing the fate to resigning to do the same action over and over again. In both the way there is an inaction, Inaction in thoughts (Mansa) would lead to inaction in speech (Vacha) and actions (Kaya). The three when not in action is a dead being. We cannot be inaction for a single moment, even our physical body involuntary of us in action. When our prakriti itself is to be in action can’t we be in a conscious awareness of our actions all three of them.

Goals gives us the way to lead the path and get our movement right, however if goals are not aligned to our purpose in life we are led by it and not in a leading position.

Leading happens when I take the responsibilities of not just the results but my actions too.

 The world follows every great soul who took the responsibilities of his own actions and if the actions are not aligned to the purpose then the benchmarks are disgraceful. For you to be a leader there is no necessity of believers behind you. What’s important is your own belief in your action and the alignment to the purpose.

Do you believe in yourself is the question, this belief then propels you to act.

Failures and falls are the element of boulevard that you have chosen to walk on, walk you must that’s the prakriti and one who walks selflessly attains the ultimate destination.

So come what may you must walk the path because inaction is unnatural and without it even the physical body cannot sustain.

The black hole

At times when nothing comes to you. It seems to be the end of the world however the world still continues to be what it is. No idea, no process and simply no liveliness. Even no question as to What to do? Every single routine is on every single task is done but you are in an auto mode or in a zombie mode. I am currently in one of those zombie modes whom do I put blame on the stagnated routine, dull day, or simply put on unbalancing hormonal phase. Whatever is the reason the first question that I asked myself was can I continue being zombied and the spontaneous reply was I can’t afford. There is a family expecting good hearty conversations, friends waiting to say hello what’s up, work waiting for instructions to move ahead and yes above all I waiting to be chirpy and alive. I just remembered Bob Proctor nd his sub conscious mind video of how we can detach from what we are feeling and impress a new idea onto our sub conscious mind. Started being aware of what I am feeling and then choosing the positive spin to impress myself. The best way to do was dress vibrantly and feel great about it. Self compliment and appreciation did magic. I dressed for myself and gave few flying kisses in mirror too. Oh wow I am beautiful and that wove the magic, the body started pushing through and the aware mind had to accept it
Self love created a whole new array of self appreciation and this turned the wheel to find beauty in a long drain routine work day and people. I was a tuning fork for nice things and resonated with vibrations the frequency matched and had nice things happening to me.
The spin was complete when gratitude started flowing in and through me. A small thank you to yourself first makes a lot of difference in own world.
It’s not that life will never throw me in a black hole again but I now know how to come out of it and that too without knowing how to drive a spaceship
Amazing is the connect of mind and body and simple are the ways to connect.
Are you being sucked in the black hole and wishing for a wormhole to take you to different Galaxy, search no outside as the interstellar journey is intrinsic and starts from within.
Happy space and happy journey.

Games People Play

Oh my my so much of noise and chaos in the system. The other day i was with one of my friend having a general conversation on what’s up in her day in day out life. She is working in a great organization that’s what i got the feel of! And here she goes with how people are backstabbing, backbiting, bitching and putting all their energy into putting someone down and now even she has started playing games. This conversation left me in a complete blackout. I am stirred to the core of heart  to hear that people instead of changing the surrounding are adapting to the surrounding. So much of energy put in the wrong place. And has left me appalled as in why we are so much in the showing and not in  seeing phase. Why I have to prove that i am better than the other person, why i have to put in so much of effort in doing or making things happen. Just cannot understand why I have to make someone else shorter to make myself taller. So much of energy being put in an act that just harms oneself, the kind of mental status I am when i am in the competition or so called race to prove myself what do i get out of it exhaustion, irritation and the feeling of un-settlement. My question is WHY are we doing this to ourselves. Dear Self get into an introspection and check out if you are feeling low and down and definitely not in the total inner peace ask yourself are in some funny race to prove yourself.

The trouble with a rat race is that even if you win you will still be a rat – Lily Tomlin

Lets Drop It……. Contd

I hope you still remember the question that i asked “what will happen if i drop the egg?” The obvious answer is it will break into pieces.

Yes it will break into pieces and then there will nothing left to work on, i disagree to this. In life at times there are so many issues or obstacles that we keep on carrying all the time like the egg in hand and then we don’t want to let go as it might mean letting go ourselves. At times dropping them or just letting them go creates a lot of space and this space can then be use to build an all together different possibility that was not available to us while we were carrying the egg 😦

Dropping that heated argument with the loved one can free us form the pain and guilt. Dropping that sucking job can free us to get our entrepreneurial insights. Or simply drop the EGO and see what possibilities one can have after it.

Breaking is not advised in a positive term however this breaking is definitely help us in building up whole new environment with umpteen possibilities.

So it would be really great if you move ahead and just drop it!!!

Believe me its really relieving and liberating and the sense of freedom is awesome. You will simply love the feeling of lightness and boundlessness that will fill you once you drop it what you’ve been holding quiet a long.

Go release yourself, you have full right to be free and happy!!! 🙂

‘Omnia Vincit Amor’ – Love conquers all!!

Last week one of my friend called me to have a nice hearty conversation and eventually it turned to the statement that why fret when love can conquer all.

‘Omnia vincit amor’ – Love conquers all. In these modern time I feel we have lost the tenor of love. So much pressed with deadlines, competition and buzy-ness that there is no time left to stand and stare.

Yes I am taking inspiration from W.H. Davies poem Leisure, we have actually become so busy that there is hurry of action is all aspect of our life. We are here in search of quick fixes, the instant coffee that will give an instant kick. Wile dealing with challenges too we are on a lookout of solutions that will give immediate relief from the circumstances. Just check around and see how many quick fixes are there and using all sort of gimmicks to lure us to fall in the trap.

Unfortunately we try to use these quick fixes in our relationships too. While handling any relation be it spouse, friend, parents or kids we want to be heard and substantiated. And to achieve this what do we do? Many a times the interaction is titled towards individual with high power or authority. The person who is able to drill down stronger and powerful is always hear of in the relationship. However, I wonder will this thing lasts forever. The emotions like anger, fear, power, when embodied in  interaction lands up in anguish, torment and pangs that scars for the lifetime.

Love is that un-hurried feeling that needs to cooked on slow burner. Love takes time to baked up but it tastes beautiful not just to the receiver but to the giver too. Just imagine the savories of being in love with whole shebang. As in everything in the universe. When love is given its time; the vibes starts flowing in with so much smoothness that the body will react to it in positive way. There seems to be a rhythm and everything resonates to this melody. The reverberations are so strong that schema start rearranging itself to reciprocate to this feeling.

Start loving and giving time to love yourself and check the difference that it will bring in you. Resolve for today that you are going to have this one feeling in totality and will allow it to manifest in all your being. At time happiness is not just about having everything it also means not having anything and still comfortable with what you are!

If you could rewrite your life any way that you please
Would you tear out the pages of your memories?
Would you take back the pain and all the hurt we create?
Or could you be satisfied with the promise you made? – From Silent Hill (Book of Memories)

 

With all the speed – Where are you going to finish???

For last one, one and half hour I am sitting beside a person who is handling the operations for a huge company (“so-called” multi-located). This observation got me into a thought process; with all the speed – where are you going to finish??

Yes in life we all are running a race, the finish line may be a little different but the final trophy (we think it to be a trophy is the illusion that we are living into) is same; better life, bigger home, fatter bank balance, lavish holidays and probably fantastic relations. This speed gives me a notion that i am working harder, faster, efficient and productive and this whole process or working at a lightening speed is going to take me to the end line where the life is better, bigger and beautiful. Oh! so much i love this race and bigger the trophy faster the race and speedier the fatigue. Yes each one of us who are there inside the speed machine is craving to break free and we all are having this hallucination that life will be beautiful when we reach there.

That’s exactly what is happening for me life is happening at some particular moment which will arrive or I’ve to work for it to arrive; it hasn’t arrived yet.

For many of us life is happening somewhere out there in the the other world or or other time. We are all for ears abut future, for us Life will be beautiful when we reach somewhere, get something, achieve something, this or that, when and then and somewhere there. In the whole process we forgot to be here right now. Life is happening out here and we should be here not somewhere in the future. The fun, the high, the excitement is all here happening right with us in this moment but we are missing the train by being somewhere there, Stop being there and start working here.

Life is NOWHERE!! Can be interpreted in 2 ways

Life is NO WHERE!! OR Life is NOW HERE!!! which way to go is all up to you after all its your free will and free choice.

ENJOY BEING HERE OR THERE ITS YOUR CHOICE!!

Service Devotion

Each one of us wants to become a satisfied in life, The question is how to attain this in this very present life. A little deep thinking and i could get that there is an innate need of helping someone to do a great job or good work or give back to the universe that has been abundant in its blessing.

This need of being of some worth always throw up choices in our life and thats when we need to understand that unless we answer the purpose of our life we have not lived our purpose. To get the ultimate satisfaction of our work we need to keep aside the logic, reasons and the pros & cons and just do it for the betterment of society, life or universe.

yas tv indriyäëi manasä niyamyärabhate ’rjuna
karmendriyaiù karma-yogam asaktaù sa viçiñyate

Meaning : If a sincere person tries to control the active senses by the mind and begins karma-yoga without attachment,he is by far superior.

Bhagwad Gita Chapter 3 Verse – 7

Well not at all want to propagate this but when i dwell on this verse there was a lot to it

If we check our leaders or people who has always striven to help out people, from ancient leaders to the modern day leaders; who changed the rules, each one of them has tried to make this world a better place to live in.

Is this possible in the cut throat competition where performances and appraisals, competitiveness and survival of the fittest are the rules of the game. This is where the humane touch differentiates the best from the good.

Let try and create meaning to our life, as rightly said lets be sincere in our giving and the joy will automatically find a place in our lives.

Got stuck in stereotyped day???

There are many times in life when the tiny monkey inside is irritated and screaming to get out and do something that gives energy and enthusiasm in life back. These are one of those times I am into it myself. Life is just plain, boring with nothing great coming in my way. Same routine at home and more or less nothing great happening at work..

What to do when the squeaky voice say “I am in a rut” or “I am stuck”, “I am bored to the hilt” honestly I really don’t know what should be done so just picked up headphones added few songs to playlist and sat with the window open to write my heart out.

I started introspecting as in what makes me feel that I am stuck or stagnated and how got up with few statements or answers that helped me to look ahead and walk.

I have lost connection with my passion/interests: Yes, i had practically stopped exploring with my interest for past few months no charcoal sketches, no shoots nor any work dolled out, the very reason that compelled me to go out on long walks or treks were not there in routine of my work week. I realized this when my rebellion teen said to me “Aai, no colors in folders? remember life can be colorful even when its monochrome” Awesome!! turning greys into colorful events I have decided to shoot in monochrome and dedicate an entire album to my teen guru.. 

Lesson learned: Make space for yourself and connect with your interest, its not necessary that your job only gives you all the kick that is required.

Everything has to be technically correct or perfect: I stressed myself on being technically correct or perfect in most of my jobs, be it, being wife, motherhood, facilitator or just a plain host for a friends’ get together. I was living a middle way and not enjoying the process of doing. What if I don’t know the recipe of making a vanilla cake and without perfecting the art of baking i enjoyed cooking it, this thought gave me energy to actually try my hands on chocolate strawberry cupcakes and instead of fretting over the taste, texture or final outcome I just concentrated on the whole process and of course enjoyed doing it along with listening to Nothing gonna change my love for you!!!! Aha! it was an amazing experience and after that one; did bake few more enjoying it to the hilt..

Lesson learned: It is important to have the perfect/correct outcome for efforts but what’s of utmost important is to learn and dare to explore. Going from normality to being inquisitive in itself give lot of enthusiasm back in life.

Constantly holding the reins or at least having the feel of being in-charge: Too much of management, feeling in bones actually kill the zeal and liveliness of the event, I was more into it. Having things perfectly set up helps but here my life was pretty set with everything in place. What do I do with so many preoccupation about what to do on the weekend, or just fuming over the next day things to do list, or what should be on… Too much of this feeling of what to do tomorrow or happen or may happen took away all the fun and left be bland and tasteless. It was one of those normal plain evenings when my husband and 6 year old daughter broke in a jig on an old song and they were thoroughly enjoying the jig and not the song. I got my eureka moment of just being there and stop worrying about what happens next, plain times can throw beautiful moments that can be cherished.

Lesson learned: Life needn’t be full of high and lows, many a times its going to be a calm flow all one has to do is simply ruffle up and break into a jig and thoroughly enjoy the madness of the moment. These crazy things brings back the luster in a vapid life.

I am sincerely trying to take that monkey out and give it a nice roller coaster ride so that for next few months or years it sit there completely calm and peaceful and I can focus on being plain normal yet live a beautiful, doleful, soulful enthusiastically charged life.